I’ve started reading a book that is going to change everything for me and I’m only halfway through it. It’s not everyday you come across a book that will have that kind of impact. But I feel strongly about this. There was once a time in my life when I thought I was very unlucky. I realize now though that I was just sabotaging myself. I had survived a fatal car crash, several family tragedies, and had PTSD because if it all. The only thing that could bring down my anxiety was drinking. And I did it for a long, long time. I realize so many things now. And endure tons of regret because of it all. But I wasn’t unlucky, I was just sabotaging myself. Hell, I was certainly more lucky than all the people around me who had just died.
In a way it’s kinda sad to be in my late 50’s now and realize what I should have been doing all these years. I often ask, where would I be if I hadn’t made all of those awful mistakes? Where would I be if I had done the right, and quite obvious, things? I don’t know. I try not to lament. I still have time left to make a positive impact. And so I keep working on myself.
Anyways, the path before my is now clear. I need to work on my introverted tendencies and my attitude. I need to maximize my chances for luck. I am only halfway through the book so there may be more insights. But I can say that even if I didn’t continue reading, I know what I need to do.
Even before reading the book, I unknowingly started working on some of the things by joining my local Rotary club, volunteering at a non-profit, getting out of the house and meeting as many people as I can.
I’m not doing this book any justice with this review. But like a lot of things I write on this blog, I want to look back on it from the future, see where I was and what I was thinking.
I have I hopes here.
